Always productive mostly as an excuse to not decipher what I really want.
Procrastination offers too much time to consider whether or not I want to do the things I’ve obligated myself to do and gives opportunity to question why the fuck I’m doing anything at all.
If I don’t do anything I feel like a piece of shit but if I’m always busy all the time then I just want to drop everything altogether.
Trying to strike a balance between achievement and happiness.
(Not sure if being an RA sucks extra dick this year or if I’m projecting my frustrations with life onto my job.)